AS I BEGAN TO LOVE MYSELF
by: Charlie Chaplin
As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY“.
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me.
Today I call it “RESPECT“.
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “Maturity“.
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE“.
As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.
Today I call it “SIMPLICITY“.
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.
Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF“.
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time.
Today I discovered that is “MODESTY“.
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening.
Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT“.
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.
Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART“.
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.
Today I know THAT IS “LIFE“!
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It amazed me how Chaplin was able define his Self. I came to hear this "poem" in the site youtube when I was searching for a motivational slash inspirational video to uplift my self confidence and self esteem. The first sentence already caught my ears and I can relate to what it was saying. Up until the last sentence I said to myself that it was perfect and thought that the one who made it really achieved knowing and loving himself, and thought he is at peace. "As I began to love myself"...this first phrase immediately struck me. Have I really loved myself all this time? Do I really love who I am including my flaws? Have I respected myself? Have I accepted that I am only limited? Have I lived my life to the fullest? How should I give love to others if I have not loved myself first? I know I cannot give what I do not have. But my younger life is currently on the process of "trial and error" and I have to respect that...I am on the stage of being easily fallen to insecurities, to fear of trying, to envy...And I know this is not what God wants. We are made in God's love. Therefore, we are LOVE. We just need to put that in our minds so that our actions may be guided by it. Someday, when the right time comes, I will be wiser and I will fully understand and love myself, with God's help and grace
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